Welcome, Step Inside

loup
9 December 2019

Some of you have been here before over the years and while I have never been one to hide my thoughts or feelings, I’ve also never really just let it all hang out. After several years of therapy and working hard to figure out some heavy shit, I thought that it is time to be honest. I am no longer going to hold my story in for fear it will hurt someone that hurt me. I am guilty of protecting others that I cared about with no regard for how much it was affecting me. That has to stop. I have learned that I can’t protect anyone but myself, and keeping it all inside is not only making it more painful for me, but it is also victim-blaming. I am not responsible for the shitty behavior of others; I am responsible for how I let it affect me.

Letter writing can be an effective way of communication. It helps you discover what you are feeling, thinking, and share ideas. I hope that by sharing my adventure, I can help myself heal and maybe help others along the way. These are the letters to myself. Dear Lehnanne.

* I am not a medical professional, hell, I am not even an amateur, and I am in NO WAY giving advice, medical or otherwise, to anyone.

José Micard Teixeira

loup
21 March 2019
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I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.

José Micard Teixeira

Emily McDowell

loup
18 March 2019
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“Finding Yourself” is not really how it works. You aren’t a ten-dollar bill in last winter’s coat pocket. You are also not lost. Your true self is right there, buried under cultural conditioning, other people’s opinions, and inaccurate conclusions you drew as a kid that became your beliefs about who you are. “Finding Yourself” is actually returning to yourself. An unlearning, an excavation, a remembering who you were before the world got its hands on you.

Emily McDowell

Rania Naim

loup
8 March 2019
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I’m slowly learning that even if I react, it won’t change anything, it won’t make people suddenly love and respect me, it won’t magically change their minds. Sometimes it’s better to just let things be, let people go, don’t fight for closure, don’t ask for explanations, don’t chase answers and don’t expect people to understand where you’re coming from. I’m slowly learning that life is better lived when you don’t center it on what’s happening around you and center it on what’s happening inside you instead. Work on yourself and your inner peace and you’ll come to realize that not reacting to every little thing that bothers you is the first ingredient to living a happy and healthy life.

Rania Naim

Winning

loup
5 March 2019

If you want to win at life, start by letting people do what they need to do to make themselves happy. Mind your own business. Do what you need to do to make yourself happy.

The End