loup
19 December 2018
    she stood in the nights’ freezing air
    crying for their love
    slowly he boarded the bus
    turning back every step
    she waved, he smiled
    love was in her eyes
    when they pulled away
    farther than before
    she had so much faith in her love
    the tears just streamed down her cheek
    he vowed to return
    but no one ever really knows
    but Autumn believed
    she believed in him
    lehnanne g. kidd © December 19, 1990

 

No God, Know Peace

loup
30 November 2018

I do not believe in god – any god. It is simple; I know that HOPE is a powerful motivator and so did powerful and corrupt people throughout history. They had power and wanted to keep or even get more. They gave the poor hope, dangled a better life after death. Keeping them working themselves into that promised release to the next world. Pushing them to ignore that the life they were living could change with the truth.

There are more GODS that people have worshipped throughout time, and they believed that their Gods were the right ones to follow,  before language people worshipped the Sun and Moon. There have been mono-theistic religions, polytheistic religions, and everything in between.

And to be clear, I have no problem with people who find the ignorance comforting. I don’t care how you get through the day. However, when your choice to stay blind, ignorant and let the men that speak for your make-believe friend make up rules that you will push others to fuck up their lives. To impose your beliefs on others is wrong. You only know and can know what works for you. You have no right to assume what others need to give them HOPE.

There is no excuse for ignorance. Don’t let your hope in something better after death to keep you from making things better in life.

Ironic how religions tell us that the way we are born is a “lifestyle choice” – but when the only ones making a CHOICE are the faithful blind followers.

Embracing the Suck

loup
27 November 2018

Last week a woman I know said that there are people who have it worse than she does so she had no right to complain. She shouldn’t be upset – she should get over it. That triggered something in me; throughout my life, I’ve heard similar things.

“There are millions of people who would love to have your life. What are you upset about?” 

Why should I be depressed? Why should I be angry?

I am depressed about the lack of chemical balance in my brain. I am angry because even though so much has gone right for me throughout my life – I have pushed the memories and emotions that come with what all has gone wrong down to the darkest corners of my soul.

I have put on a smile and not really acknowledged the pain in my life; suppressing it so far down that when it bubbles up it consumes me.  Putting on a happy face and ignoring the pain and emotions that I have has brought me to this point in my life. A point where I have to struggle to find the joy and good things that are in front of me because I am weighed down by it all. The Oscar goes to – but recently I have become a shitty actor; I have decided to give up my poker face and false smiles

I have, just like everyone else on this rock, every right to own my emotions; to see them through. We all need to express them and find our way through them. Learn from the anger, hold the pain close to us until it no longer serves a purpose. Many people struggle with these emotions; others have told them to suck it up and stop feeling whatever way. There is nothing to gain from suppressing things. We have to own them, work them out and take from them what they have to teach us and then let them go.

We cannot change the past, it is cliché, but it is true.

In other words – EMBRACE THE SUCK, make it useful then let it the fuck go.

loup
16 November 2018

lessons in the desert

he said leaving is never easy
and she walked out the door
a dust devil came for her soul
as she realized she wouldn’t see him anymore

the dreams still haunt her
what could have been and things left unsaid
did she ever really know him
or was it all in her head

the desert sun baked down on her
the day she drove away
a stronger woman for it all
but oh what a price to pay

Mind Blown

loup
2 November 2018

Do you ever think if Young Sheldon Cooper found out his MeeMaw once dated Luke Skywalker it would blow his mind?

 

(Corvette Summer – look it up)