Welcome, Step Inside

loup
9 December 2019

Some of you have been here before over the years and while I have never been one to hide my thoughts or feelings, I’ve also never really just let it all hang out. After several years of therapy and working hard to figure out some heavy shit, I thought that it is time to be honest. I am no longer going to hold my story in for fear it will hurt someone that hurt me. I am guilty of protecting others that I cared about with no regard for how much it was affecting me. That has to stop. I have learned that I can’t protect anyone but myself, and keeping it all inside is not only making it more painful for me, but it is also victim-blaming. I am not responsible for the shitty behavior of others; I am responsible for how I let it affect me.

Letter writing can be an effective way of communication. It helps you discover what you are feeling, thinking, and share ideas. I hope that by sharing my adventure, I can help myself heal and maybe help others along the way. These are the letters to myself. Dear Lehnanne.

* I am not a medical professional, hell, I am not even an amateur, and I am in NO WAY giving advice, medical or otherwise, to anyone.

Quotable

loup
1 December 2019
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To learn to respect and reverence for the process is what counts, we each take our own roads, but it is what one discovers along that road that’s important, and how one is changed by those discoveries.
– Judith Guest

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loup
30 November 2019

Sooner or later a choice will have to be made: to continue on a willful path in which one tries to secure autonomy and self-determination, or to embark on a spiritual path in which one seeks ever-greater willingness to become part of the fundamental processes of life in self-surrender.
– Gerald May

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loup
15 November 2019
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Daily silence experienced in humility and fervor as an indispensable exercise in spiritual nourishment gradually creates within is a permanent state of stillness. The soul discovers in such silence. The soul discovers in such a silence unsuspected possibilities. It realizes that life can be lived at different levels.
– Pierre Laconte

Self-Care Sunday – Pause

loup
10 November 2019

When others seem agitated with you take a moment before you internalize it. Is this about you, or is this something else? A feeling of theirs that they are getting to express but not AT you. An emotion or event that they are working through and you happen to be present. If you can not see what you’ve done or said – don’t worry. It’s now about you. You are just present. Stay present, let it wash over you and then let it go.

Rules

loup
9 November 2019

The Rules of Journal Writing

1. Date your entries as you go.

2. There are no other rules.

write more

loup
5 November 2019

write more
write more
write more
write more

put down your ideas
they need to be alive
breathe life into your story
with writing them out

write

Self-Care Sunday – Tree of Life

loup
3 November 2019

Self-Care Sunday – The Tree of Life

I like to create stuff. I don’t know that I am any good at it, but I enjoy it, so there is that benefit.
After my therapist suggested this activity The Tree of Life, my first thought after seeing the examples was this could be a great art therapy option.

I used different colors and took a little bit of time to cute it up. After that, I told my therapist I had an idea about more Tree of Life art therapy.

write a word
draw a picture
whatever that memory means to you
put that emotion onto the leaf
see it, feel it, own it
then let it fall
you are not what has happened to you
you are a product of it
let what happened in the past go
forgive others if you can
but most of all forgive yourself

Quotable

loup
27 October 2019
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Our society has become a conspiracy against joy. It has put too much emphasis on the individuating part of our consciousness —individual reason— and too little emphasis on the bounding parts of our consciousness, the heart, and soul.
– David Brooks

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loup
24 October 2019
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Be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them now. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
– Rainer Maria Rilke