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i’m too old to feel like this

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This year has been pure hell on me and my husband. It all started last Autumn. In November my parents moved to Carlsbad, New Mexico. For them it was a dream come true. For me it was filled with worry and heart-ache. I missed my mother so much. I cried every night for nearly a month after she moved out… Read more »

the fall of techtv

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the fall of techtv … I wonder just how many geekgrrls are implants on legs in real life? I think that chick with her suggestion of catoftheday.com as her siteorama pick as a cool geekie site suggestion threw me into a tail spin, Martin’s sidekick just took me over the edge…. I wonder what she does with her tits when… Read more »

These Dreams

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Dum dum dee do wah oh yeah yeah yeah – I had a dream about my dad recently. It was very comforting to be able to dream about my parents and not just feel anxious about it all because they are dead and I know it. I was able to enjoy the dream (yes I knew I was dreaming and… Read more »

dreaming of daddy

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Dum dum dee do wah oh yeah yeah yeah – I had a dream about my dad recently. It was very comforting to be able to dream about my parents and not just feel anxious about it all because they are dead and I know it. I was able to enjoy the dream (yes I knew I was dreaming and… Read more »

Year

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One year ago – seems like yesterday. I sat like a little girl lost holding her hand. I am 30 now and I am an adult with my own life to live and yet I feel like an orphan. It is so strange.

sheeple suck

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I hate sheeple. Sheeple? You ask, yes SHEEPLE. You know the human herd. Just because Gagney Spears sold millions of records doesn’t mean she has talent. But the sheeple – the sheeple think she is the next Nina Simone. Sheeple believe that Edison invented everything he holds a patent for, couldn’t possibly have stolen ideas from his former colleague Nikola… Read more »

Thomas F Gibbs Jr

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Carlsbad N.M. – 1SG Thomas Franklin Gibbs, Jr. (Retired), 58, died June 21, 2002 at Carlsbad Medical Center. Tom was born July 3, 1943 to the late Thomas F. Gibbs, Sr. and Wilmoth Whitlow Gibbs. He was preceded in death by his wife of over 20 years, Melody Ann Gibbs. Her passing in February 2002 had a profound affect on… Read more »

Coming Home

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Daddy died this afternoon. I called LK and told him I wanted to come home. I don’t want to be here anymore. Carlsbad was never where I wanted to be and with mom and dad both dead now .. I don’t think I could stand to live in this town. There are NO good memories for me here. I am… Read more »

Guilt

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There is a special place for people who fight cancer. I can’t think of another disease that kills the body and the spirit. Not just of the patient but their loved ones. It eats away at us all. I am feeling so guilty that Daddy had to go back into the hospital. I am afraid I won’t be able to… Read more »

Cancer Sucks

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Well I am out in NM once again — this time for good I think. Dad was diagnosed last week with terminal metastatic bladder cancer. Stage 4. I think he has been sick a long time. I can remember before LKs last deployment (well over a year ago) I told him that dad looked like he was just full of… Read more »