Self-Care Sunday – Pause

10 November 2019

When others seem agitated with you take a moment before you internalize it. Is this about you, or is this something else? A feeling of theirs that they are getting to express but not AT you. An emotion or event that they are working through and you happen to be present. If you can not see what you’ve done or said – don’t worry. It’s now about you. You are just present. Stay present, let it wash over you and then let it go.

Self-Care Sunday – Tree of Life

3 November 2019

Self-Care Sunday – The Tree of Life

I like to create stuff. I don’t know that I am any good at it, but I enjoy it, so there is that benefit.
After my therapist suggested this activity The Tree of Life, my first thought after seeing the examples was this could be a great art therapy option.

I used different colors and took a little bit of time to cute it up. After that, I told my therapist I had an idea about more Tree of Life art therapy.

write a word
draw a picture
whatever that memory means to you
put that emotion onto the leaf
see it, feel it, own it
then let it fall
you are not what has happened to you
you are a product of it
let what happened in the past go
forgive others if you can
but most of all forgive yourself


24 October 2019

Be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them now. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
– Rainer Maria Rilke

Entertain Me

20 October 2019

It must be a pain in the arse to be an actor; putting in your best effort on a project, and then your hard work ends up being edited beyond recognition. Of course, after being snipped and jostled about by every other hand after your part is complete, it must be your fault for the piece of utter shite that it has become.

They are expected to be friends with everyone you’ve ever worked alongside.”That’s right Karen; I spend my weekends at Will Smith’s house because I handed him a file in a movie 15 years ago. We are fucking besties, Karen. How is Bob from your work-study job in college 15 years ago?”

The other thing that blows my mind is that whole attitude that entertainers are not allowed to have thoughts or opinions of their own. How often have I heard comments like – “Actors need to stick to acting, sit down and shut up about politics and current affairs, sit there and look pretty.” Ok, Todd, you work at Office Max – if I want to hear you talk about anything but how legit Swingline staplers I’ll let you know.”

Entertainers are not allowed by the public to have a personal life, make mistakes, have feelings, desire privacy – you know you picked a public career so you can never have a down moment to yourself and family. Leaving everything open to interpretation.

The perception of who they are by the public must bring its own frustrations. Some people cannot reconcile that the actor is not the character, as well as being a complement to the talent of the actor it is dismissive of the PERSON.


15 October 2019

Do you remember back in the day when the power grid would go down for hours during a storm?

Nothing to do but light a candle and wait it out.

I remember playing card games, having a conversation with my family and friends.

Sit and read by candlelight and just enjoying the silence of the house

I miss those days.

you are not

21 September 2019

you are not what others think of you
you are what you think of you


14 September 2019

“In facing our shattered life stories, we must reach deep inside our pain
— for it is here that we can break our silence and find our new voice.”

Sandra Marinella, The Story You Need To Tell

Visible Light

10 September 2019

According to scientists, humans can only see about 0.0035% of the electromagnetic spectrum. That leaves 99.9965% that we can’t see.

There is so much to this Universe that we can’t see, and don’t yet understand.

we are the world

3 September 2019

If you focus only on how we are different from one another, you miss all of the things we share

we all want to be safe
we all deserve kindness and respect
we want the chance to pursue our happiness
we laugh we cry we bleed
we are human


As humans, we all want to be safe, and we want to keep our families safe, protect them from the invasion of invisible lines, borders, and barriers, this is the kind of fear built civilizations..

Now you want to build a wall, spending billions to put up something costly, ineffective, and ugly in more ways than one. The harsh reality is we need to spend that money on infrastructure, roads, schools, healthcare, and taking care of this planet.

I know you, living check to check, working multiple jobs and still coming up short. While the companies you work for enjoy tax breaks and profits through the roof. While their new hire packets have forms for welfare and food stamps, what is wrong with THAT?

Terrified that tax dollars are helping the people you think are unfit and don’t deserve assistance. Taxes – just as they have been for millennia is going to keep the corrupted in charge & well fed.
Timeless stories like Robin Hood have told and retold this tale.
You don’t want to track down the truth; there is always some 4 second sound bite that you believe tells you the whole story or worse is a FACT. Willfully ignorant is no way to be.


23 May 2019

There comes a time in everyone’s life when they no longer worry about the little things. For some, it arrives with fanfare and a bright silvery bell ringing in their head; for others it is gradual, and in one quiet moment you see it. You understand. Life is too short to waste your energy, your time on things that do not matter. You only get so many moments and giving away time you will never get back on trivial bullshit, and people that do nothing but suck the life out of the room will not bring you true happiness.

I have had that moment. I struggled for a long time with taking on others energy and tragedies. Things I couldn’t even change for them if I tried. I just sucked all of that negativity into my soul and held onto it. Maybe I believed if I held it all in, I could keep it from the people I cared about, somehow save them from the pain, from themselves. That didn’t happen, and all that it did do was rob me of time, the time I spent on shit that I could not change.

That stops now. We only have a limited amount of time on this rock, and I am no longer interested in spending time on negative shit that I didn’t cause, I can’t fix, and ultimately is none of my business.