15 October 2019

Do you remember back in the day when the power grid would go down for hours during a storm?

Nothing to do but light a candle and wait it out.

I remember playing card games, having a conversation with my family and friends.

Sit and read by candlelight and just enjoying the silence of the house

I miss those days.

you are not

21 September 2019

you are not what others think of you
you are what you think of you


14 September 2019

“In facing our shattered life stories, we must reach deep inside our pain
— for it is here that we can break our silence and find our new voice.”

Sandra Marinella, The Story You Need To Tell

Visible Light

10 September 2019

According to scientists, humans can only see about 0.0035% of the electromagnetic spectrum. That leaves 99.9965% that we can’t see.

There is so much to this Universe that we can’t see, and don’t yet understand.

we are the world

3 September 2019

If you focus only on how we are different from one another, you miss all of the things we share

we all want to be safe
we all deserve kindness and respect
we want the chance to pursue our happiness
we laugh we cry we bleed
we are human


As humans, we all want to be safe, and we want to keep our families safe, protect them from the invasion of invisible lines, borders, and barriers, this is the kind of fear built civilizations..

Now you want to build a wall, spending billions to put up something costly, ineffective, and ugly in more ways than one. The harsh reality is we need to spend that money on infrastructure, roads, schools, healthcare, and taking care of this planet.

I know you, living check to check, working multiple jobs and still coming up short. While the companies you work for enjoy tax breaks and profits through the roof. While their new hire packets have forms for welfare and food stamps, what is wrong with THAT?

Terrified that tax dollars are helping the people you think are unfit and don’t deserve assistance. Taxes – just as they have been for millennia is going to keep the corrupted in charge & well fed.
Timeless stories like Robin Hood have told and retold this tale.
You don’t want to track down the truth; there is always some 4 second sound bite that you believe tells you the whole story or worse is a FACT. Willfully ignorant is no way to be.

Self-Care Sunday

11 August 2019

Self-Care Sunday

find a safe space
get naked
gently run your hands over your body
all of your body
even the parts that bother you
realize that other people have those parts too
they feel the urge to shame themselves
take a breath and know that you are not alone
then take a moment to appreciate your body
and all that your body does for you
it keeps you alive for fuck’s sake
know that it is okay to love yourself
to accept your body and self
accept your flaws and beauty alike
because after all, that is what makes you

Self- Care

6 August 2019

I thought I had been taking care of my self. I thought wrong. I realize now that so many little things we do to ourselves add up to big things. One day I decided to try to pay attention to my inner dialogue. I stopped counting the negative shit I was thinking about MYSELF. Me, the one person I have. Me, the one person who will be with me for the long haul. Me, the one person that lives in my head – my miserable and loud head.

– how could I be so clumsy
– I look like shit in this outfit
– why did I eat that I am supposed to be working on my weight
– just how fucked up am I
– no-one wants to read what I write
– how can anyone love me – I’m broken
– I shouldn’t complain, a lot of people have it worse
– I have ZERO talent
– how can anyone tolerate my being sick all of the damned time
– who am I to spend so much time concentrating on self-care

You know the kind, these little gems of negativity and horse-shit come and go with regularity. They sometimes creep through with some stealth, and other times they burst through the door like Kramer and Jack Torrance had a baby. Google it; I’ll wait.
So, this is my attempt at accountability. I hope that working on the small stuff will lead to positive changes in the big thing.

I plan to use this category to keep track of my self-care. Writing about my experience and sometimes sharing thoughts and ideas I have about the journey.

Please note that this is my journey, and these are my thoughts and experiences.



23 May 2019

There comes a time in everyone’s life when they no longer worry about the little things. For some, it arrives with fanfare and a bright silvery bell ringing in their head; for others it is gradual, and in one quiet moment you see it. You understand. Life is too short to waste your energy, your time on things that do not matter. You only get so many moments and giving away time you will never get back on trivial bullshit, and people that do nothing but suck the life out of the room will not bring you true happiness.

I have had that moment. I struggled for a long time with taking on others energy and tragedies. Things I couldn’t even change for them if I tried. I just sucked all of that negativity into my soul and held onto it. Maybe I believed if I held it all in, I could keep it from the people I cared about, somehow save them from the pain, from themselves. That didn’t happen, and all that it did do was rob me of time, the time I spent on shit that I could not change.

That stops now. We only have a limited amount of time on this rock, and I am no longer interested in spending time on negative shit that I didn’t cause, I can’t fix, and ultimately is none of my business.

Elan Gale

20 April 2019

I’m going to keep this short and sweet. Every day you’re alive is unearned. Every day you exist on Earth is a fucking miracle. Your parents made you and raised you (or didn’t) without your permission. But now you’re here. You’ll be dead soon. But you’re not dead yet.

That truly won’t last forever. Every time you drive down the freeway you’re trusting that all those other people out there won’t just cross that median and kill you. Every time you eat at a restaurant you’re trusting that the chef won’t accidentally poison you. Every time you close your eyes you’re trusting that a psychotic stranger won’t stab you in the fucking face and make a mask out of your skin.

This life is temporary. Death is permanent. You will do very few things while you are here on Earth, but you will do NOTHING forever. Don’t waste your time here doing nothing. There is plenty of time for that while you chill in the ground until the cemetery you ended up in gets turned into a Walmart.

Life is glorious. Life is full of adventure. Life is full of limitless opportunity.

Don’t waste it. Don’t wait. There is no promise of tomorrow.

Elan Gale

Sheenagh Pugh

14 April 2019

What if this road, that has no held surprises
these many years, decided not to go
home after all; what if it could turn
left or right with no more ado
than a kite-tail? What if its tarry skin
were like a long, supple bolt of cloth,
that is shaken and rolled out, and takes
a new shape from the contours beneath?
And if it chose to lay itself down
in a new way; around a blind corner,
across hills you must climb without knowing
what’s on the other side; who would not hanker
to be going, at all risks? Who wants to know
a story’s end, or where a road will go?

Sheenagh Pugh