Last week a woman I know said that there are people who have it worse than she does so she had no right to complain. She shouldn’t be upset – she should get over it. That triggered something in me; throughout my life, I’ve heard similar things.
“There are millions of people who would love to have your life. What are you upset about?”
Why should I be depressed? Why should I be angry?
I am depressed about the lack of chemical balance in my brain. I am angry because even though so much has gone right for me throughout my life – I have pushed the memories and emotions that come with what all has gone wrong down to the darkest corners of my soul.
I have put on a smile and not really acknowledged the pain in my life; suppressing it so far down that when it bubbles up it consumes me. Putting on a happy face and ignoring the pain and emotions that I have has brought me to this point in my life. A point where I have to struggle to find the joy and good things that are in front of me because I am weighed down by it all. The Oscar goes to – but recently I have become a shitty actor; I have decided to give up my poker face and false smiles
I have, just like everyone else on this rock, every right to own my emotions; to see them through. We all need to express them and find our way through them. Learn from the anger, hold the pain close to us until it no longer serves a purpose. Many people struggle with these emotions; others have told them to suck it up and stop feeling whatever way. There is nothing to gain from suppressing things. We have to own them, work them out and take from them what they have to teach us and then let them go.
We cannot change the past, it is cliché, but it is true.
In other words – EMBRACE THE SUCK, make it useful then let it the fuck go.